I feel like my followers and viewers on here needs to know the truth. Well here it is
So I’ve been hiding this for probably 5 years and I need to express this out now. Remember how I’ve been feeling about being out of place and not knowing who I am and whats my personality? Well the truth is the reason why I feel like this is because I have a mind of 70% female and 30% male. What does that mean? I came to realized I feel like a woman personality wise, look and appearance wise and only a little bit of male inside of me. I always think like a girl when it comes to activities, music and designing. I’m in love using women’s cosmetics (Perfume and hair stuff) and being into glitter. I love fashion stuff, generally women’s stuff like skinny jeans, pink T-Shirts, I’m into love songs and ballads more than anyone thinks I do with my favorite singers being Kelly Clarkson, Katy Perry and Glee music. I’m into spa and getting some kind of pedicure soon hopefully. When I stuff to my mind, my mind is thinking of photography of course but also my mind thinks of adventuring, love stories, glitter and glamour and most importantly being able to express myself without it being a big deal. Before anyone asked if I’m turning gay the answer is no and yes I respect and support gays and lesbians especially I have friends who are gay/lesbians. I’ve been having this feeling for years actually because I can’t think like nor feel and don’t mind and my personality is all about feeling like a women and being able to express myself more differently and have some
The Reason why I didn’t want to reveal this to anyone until now because people already make fun of me for using females and pop music instead of rapping and beat box music that I’m not into. And most people I know who judged me for my complaining and my taste of things, made me felt more uncomfortable of sharing this even to my family I was afraid to reveal this. I don’t want to pretend something I’m not and I’m tired of feeling like I need to hide my feelings and not be able to show it out with it.
What I’m going to be doing more hopefully will be using perfume, going to a spa at least a month, getting a pedicure, and having some kind of glitter on me because I realized I’m not a pure male. I’m also going to be changing my appearance soon with a new look (Not sex changed). I want everyone to be able to know the truth without thinking that I’m something that’s not me. I wonder if people will leave me because of what I revealed? Will anyone still like me who I am? I’m not going to delete this if people try to make me because I really do want to feel like I can be accepted for this. It’s something I will continue to live with. It is what it is